The Femboy Angel of Deutschland
Jacky
Known to his thousands of Instagram followers as @Jacky.fly, has become a prominent figure in the femboy community, but his journey to success hasn’t been easy, and after hearing just a part of it, I knew his story needed to be heard.
I wanted to give you a sense of how Jacky’s youth and how he had grown up shaped his future ;
“As a kid I never really had many friends. I always found myself an outsider” expanding on that he goes on to say, “Having been good in school I didn’t have much in common with the other kids.” However, in contrast to this he did say “I’ve always had a loving family that was supportive and could always count on my little brother.”
We then talked a bit about his recent and current life, “I studied design and fashion at university which eventually led to my career in the theater industry and became a costume tailor.”
Along the way Jacky brought his hobby, work and passion together and started cosplaying himself with the talent he had built up through school and then work. Now with nearly 50,000 followers on Instagram, he’s easily one of the most prominent figures in the femboy community and idolized as such.
I later asked if he had any plans for cosplay competitions and contests; “I would definitely like to take part in a competition and go to cons in other countries” As one would expect he said his focus “will always be on his passion and having fun”
When asked where he sees himself going in the future he told me “I hope one day to have my own fashion boutique and make people happy with my fashion. That is my biggest dream!”
I can definitely relate… though Jacky’s got a bit of an advantage over me… he can design and sew clothing… I don’t have the skillset for that.
Now you might be thinking, it’s because of this, that I’ve written this article. Well I’m both happy and sad to say that is not the case. I had a question for him that I had for a while but didn’t want to ask initially and at some point just forgot until the other day. Here is that long winded question and it’s surprisingly dark answer.
I do warn you here as it is like I said dark.
Back in late 2019 or early 2020 I found your IG when you had first started cosplaying Astolfo. I was like “this cosplayer is so cute holy crap, watch it’s probably a girl” (at the time lots of girls were cosplaying him).
looking through your account, in most pictures you had a pretty sizable rack so to speak… but there were some pictures that didn’t have them… not many at all which added to my confusion. I decided you were cute enough to follow whichever the case… then there was that one post and I thought “BULGE! Finally the perfect Astolfo cosplay!!”
So what was the rack about and why did you eventually just stop using it all together?
“Well.. My youth was unfortunately very cruel and rough… ” on top of his lonely elementary years once in junior high it only got worse.
“I don’t like to look back it… but when I was 13 I was raped and my boyfriend would both physically as well as mentally abuse me”. This went on for some time to the point where started to hate not only himself but his body as well to the degree he tried to kill himself several times. “I’d prefer to consider myself still a virgin cause I can’t let and don’t want that time to count”
While its most certainly a terrible thing to go through I think its important to know you are not alone. I’ve talked to a number of my customers and many have had similar events in their youth. You are not alone and you WILL get through it.
Pushing himself away from all things male, he found himself liking and enjoying women’s clothing and accessories more and more until he finally dressed up and felt like it fit. When he first opened his instagram he’d decided he wanted to transition and completely at that. “I thought I was starting a new life with a new identity. This is why I started as a woman”
All of that said… with the help from his family and therapy sessions that continue to this day “I began to accept myself and love myself more and more” he continues on ” I stopped the hormone therapy and sex change process”
After coming to the conclusion that transitioning wasn’t the answer he wanted to own who was and own the past that made him who he is today. becoming a woman was necessary but being cute was ” I wanted to stay a male, so I went the femboy direction.”
While he’s begun to love himself, not everyone else does. “Unfortunately I’m often insulted and threatened because some say I’m not a man, that I am a woman who only pretends to be a man.” After all the work he’s put into himself to accept himself and everything that’s happened, people still wish very hurtful things. “I often think about quitting cosplay and stuff… But I don’t want others to determine my life.”
And that’s the key. Don’t let the mob or anyone else tell you this or that. Look for your own path and keep looking, till you find the right one for yourself.
There are many (not only in the femboy world), but also those in pre or early transition or are just gay or even the straight people who have had to endure the same things or similar things to you, myself included to a degree, for those young fragile people out there reading this,
what would your message be to them?
“The most important thing is to never lose passion for something that is important to you. Even if people try to get you down or want to hurt you or do hurt you…
You should never give them the satisfaction that they’ve won.”
In conclusion, Jacky’s story is a powerful reminder that even in the face of adversity, we have the strength to overcome our challenges and emerge stronger. It’s natural to struggle and even fight against ourselves at times, but these struggles are what make us truly amazing. Once we’ve conquered our personal demons, we have the ability to share our experiences and help others who may be going through similar struggles. I hope Jacky’s story has inspired you to embrace your own journey and accept yourself for who you are and I’m humbled to have been given the opportunity to share his story with you.
Jacky. For the short time I’ve known you. You’ve been an amazing person through and through. I never asked for your story out of respect, and privacy. After reading it here. It’s, hard to feel what you have felt, and gone through. But same time. It leaves me in a state of numb for you. On one part, not knowing how to feel. On the other, not sure how to ever go about it, in terms with you Respectfully, and also. I have autism, and can’t process this entirely. May take some time before it all comes together. Apologie. As you never seem to ever let it show, or ever get you down. Which is a good thing. If I could give one advice here. It be to just keep doing what you do. You’re achieving everything and beyond. You have a loving, and supportive family, and more so, a loving GF who accepts you for what you are, and what you do. You’re life is blessed with so many things. And you’ll always find many more at the end of every achievement. May you always continue to be successful, and may you always find the strength, and courage in you to overcome, and succeed. ❤️